Love this! I like the idea of being outside of time--that's what it feels like, with no jobs and deadlines that I set myself like "maybe by the end of this year?"
Esp love: "Stop comparing their life with yours. Don’t say that you are jealous of their life. It is hard to be them. They don’t need to live for you." Feel this very much. I understand the envy: it took me a lot of privilege to get here. But also it took disability and choices and failing at 'normal' things.
Yes!! Freelancing and working for yourself has a way of freeing up time yet sometimes I crave structure. But also don’t.
Sigh, if I could have some money for every time people have shown envy, I wouldn’t need to work for a year. How much ever you may want people to see you struggle, they only see the flourishing.
Love this! I like the idea of being outside of time--that's what it feels like, with no jobs and deadlines that I set myself like "maybe by the end of this year?"
Esp love: "Stop comparing their life with yours. Don’t say that you are jealous of their life. It is hard to be them. They don’t need to live for you." Feel this very much. I understand the envy: it took me a lot of privilege to get here. But also it took disability and choices and failing at 'normal' things.
"Make space for weird." Yes!
Yes!! Freelancing and working for yourself has a way of freeing up time yet sometimes I crave structure. But also don’t.
Sigh, if I could have some money for every time people have shown envy, I wouldn’t need to work for a year. How much ever you may want people to see you struggle, they only see the flourishing.
same. Once in a while I miss the structure -- because structuring for yourself is hard! but I remind myself how limiting it is.
"How much ever you may want people to see you struggle, they only see the flourishing."!!! You're full of gems of wisdom!
Also, do you read/listen to Sluggish? https://www.sluggish.xyz
I love sluggish. They are marta rose’s workshop partner in neuroqueering your writing!!